so i feel like shit lately...i don't even know what's wrong, but i feel like crying all the time. i'm like a zombie.

i miss Glenn.


i'm uncertain about my future. i know i'm not happy here, but who knows if i'll be happy there? there being...wherever i think i'll be happy.

i don't feel well. sometimes it's damn hard to get out of bed.

things are happening that i didn't expect to happen. people aren't telling me things that i need to know.

i'm going along just fine, thinking i know what's going on, then the proverbial rug is ripped out from underneath me.


there are so many things that i can't stand to think about because they hurt so much...and i'm reminded of them almost every day, and i can't get away.



what the fuck is happening?